When was the last time i updated my blog?!
damn, forgotten about this personal blog when i kept blogging on baby's blog.

Okies,
i have alot to say.
yup my mind had been processing again and again.
always overloading my mind with all kinds of random stuff..

1st up, my O LEVEL IS ENDING SOON!
to be exact, its on this friday.
Damn! i am jealous of the C.Science people,
after tomorrow's C.Science MCQ they are free!
DAMN DAMN DAMN!
why can't the exam board system be more flexible?!
(keep me literally! ok lame xD)
going to school on thursday and friday for biology and chemistry MCQ respectively.
it last only ONE HOUR EACH!
and i have to go to school on friday at 8 am for that darn chemistry MCQ?!
something wrong with how they planned the timetable.
surely their mind are spoiled.
teehee


I am being cranky right now.
yep, due to that darn it stomach cramp.
i had been in a torture for the past 9 hours.
>.<
and on top of that i am running a slight fever.
ARGH! what kind of logic is this?
me having to suffer from 2 different agony of pain through out the past 10 hours and so on for now.

i have to keep very quiet about this to baby.
if not he will hell worry about me >.<
its being tiring for him since he started serving NS.
i just want him to be carefree for now
n_n

damn the cramps!
ARGH!
damned my mood to study.


in another few hours,
the official Graduating Ceremony for the 2009 batch will starts.
i really do not know what to expect today.
joy, gratefulness or tears?
its a mixed feeling for me right now at this moment.

growing up is part of everyone's everyday life.
even when you are at the age of 70s.
you still grow.
not old, but even more experience in one way or another.

After tonight's ceremony,
it marks a new chapter in whatever we are doing.
we are no more a 16/17 year old brat that do not know what life ahead are waiting for us.
we will be taking our 1st step into the reality of the world.
first up, we will be facing the O' level examinations.
it is very very different from 4-5years ago, that PSLE we had taken.
it is just very different.
because PSLE doesn't make a very big impact.
but O' level do, in my opinion.
because regardless of the polytechnics or junior college you will be going,
the courses you will be taking,
makes a different in the future of yours.


i believe that everyone can hold onto their fate and determine their future.
its just how you are gna achieve your goals.
every step you make,
is it going to bring you closer to your target?
or will it push you further away from them?
you determine how you gna make used of every opportunity in front of you.
because, it will be you at the end of the day deciding which steps to take.
no one else can interfere with you decisions.
they can only give comments and suggestions.

even when everyone else thinks that you have made the wrong decisions.
but you are the one who is clear of what's ahead of you.
how you are gna move the piece of chess in front of you to emerge as the winner in you yourself.

i believe that you should be competing with only yourself.
not others.
others can give you more motivation to do better.
but never compete with others.
it is tiring,
plus you will not be happy at all.
immersing in a war of competition,
it can lead you out of the path to success.
but when you compete with yourself,
you know how much have you achieve.
you will be able to feel that satisfaction.
and by competing with yourself,
you will improve much faster than ever.

these are some stuff that i feel it is good to share...
maybe of what i have gone through enable me to mature faster than anyone else...

*yawn*
i am tired, as usual.
LOL

but this time felt great about myself.
i did not nap this afternoon and i'm able to last till now!
gosh!
normally i need a nap in the afternoon.
but not today! n_n

i have a lot to post as usual,
if not i won't be here. LOL

first, baby's gna book out of camp in another 2 days!
i can't wait to meet that dumb ass!

next,
i was chatting to huibing this evening.
i realised something very serious and important to all of us.
WE ARE GNA BE OFFICIALLY GRADUATE FROM HOLY INNOCENTS' HIGH SCHOOL!
lame you may think.
but this ceremony that will be conducted tomorrow,
shows a great significant to all the graduating students.
this is the ceremony that marks the end of our journey in HIHS.
As well as it is the ceremony that opens another new chapter of our life.
well, need to prepare my camera again.
this time round with a few extra packets of tissues.
we are gna make a good use out of it.
see up there?
i used "WE", yeah not just only me.
but many of us will shed at least a tear, this is what i predict.
as most of us will be touched for being graduated,
as well as many of us will miss this environment we grow in for the last 4/5 years.
no more gatherings in the canteen that intimidate others,
cause all of us are with the tie.
no more scoldings from SUZIE!
hahahs
no more fun and laughter with the funny classmates.
GOSH! the list goes on and on...

there's a lot of things i would be posting tomorrow,
especially after the ceremony.
which will induce me to process a lot of thinking.

i start to miss school for now.
the different stages of growth i went through being a HIHS student.
the values the school wants every HIHS student to bring with them as they grow.
the services and the commitment to God and the society.
how the school believe that there is the uniqueness of every students.
maybe due to much i have gone through as an Exco, as a student leader.
this is the whole picture i had seen for the past 4 years.
being the batch to see 2 different Princpals and Vice-principals leading the school even better each year.(2 years for Mrs Wong/Ms Micheal and 2 years with Ms Soh and Ms Ng)

its a very fulfilling journey.

I have led a wonderful journey that not many has.
this made me cherish every single person and thing i do.
its a opportunity that i had grab onto without any regrets.

Thanks you HIHS.

i have been mugging and slacking at the same time.

LOL!
just finished 1 theme of SS.
just hope that all the effort i put into combine humanities would score me an A.
no more B3 for C.H please, pretty please >.<

i am happy that i ace in my chemistry mock exam last week.
its the 1st time that i scored an A for it.
because i always fail chemistry.
Yeah, funny huh
pure sciences student failing her chemistry.
biology ain't anything better, always a C or random times a B
but this time, i have the motivation to study chemistry!

JIAYOU ANNE NEO!

Officially Yours
by: Craig David

[Intro]Oh yeah yes
La da day, la da day
La da da da da oh

[Verse 1]
Thinkin' how the story goes
You're helpless and I'm wishin'
Put the film inside my mind
But there's a big scene that I'm missin'
As I re-read my lines
I think I said this, I should've said that
Did you edit me out of your mind'
Cos in a flash you had disappeared, gone (gone)

Before the curtain falls
And we act this out again
Maybe I should risk it all and state

[Chorus]
That I'm officially going on the record
To say I'm in love with you
I'm officially everything you hope that I would be
This time I'll tell the truth
I'm officially wrong I know
For letting you go the way I did
Unconditionally more than I ever was before
I'm officially yoursLa da day, la da day
La da da da da oh

[Verse 2]
Travellin' down this road again
Gotta make a few decisions
Don't want you to feel this hurt again
That's why I'm hopin' that you'll listen
If you let me press rewind
I'll rehearse every word I should have said'

Cos girl I'm ready to make things right
Here on this stage so we can move on (on)
And before the curtain falls
And we act this out again
Missin' pieces I'll resolve so stay

[Chorus]
I'm officially going on the record
To say I'm in love with you
I'm officially everything you hope that I would be
This time I'll tell the truth
I'm officially wrong I know
For letting you go the way I did
Unconditionally more than I ever was before

[Bridge]
Things I should have said
Like I appreciate the time that I spend with you
Inspire me with the smile I put on your pretty face
My world comes alive, now I know (now I know it babe)
This time I'm not letting go'
Cos I'm officially yours (oh oh)

[Chorus]
Officially everything you hope that I would be
This time I'll tell the truth
I'm officially wrong I know
For letting you go the way I did
Unconditionally more than I ever was before
I'm officially going on the record
To say I'm in love with you
I'm officially everything you hope that I would be
This time I'll tell the truthI'm officially wrong I know
For letting you go the way I did
Unconditionally more than I ever was before

[Outro]
Girl I'm unconditionally yours (oh yeah)
Officially yours, your man (La da day, la da day, la da day)
Girl I'm unconditionally yours (La da da da da oh)
Officially yours, I amGirl I'm unconditionally yours (listen what I'm tryna say)
Officially yours, your man (oh oh)Girl I'm unconditionally yours
Officially yours, I am



i can't remember how i stumble upon this song.
but i find it very cute!
haha
its quite an old song.
but it is still nice..
the lyrics isn't as realistic as it should be in the reality.
but it is still so damn sweet!

planned a 5 week timetable for Olevel revision.
ok, actually i am left with 2 weeks to the examination.
the last 3 weeks are the O level weeks.

well, me with the short-term-memory,
always have to do last minute revisions to remember every single thing. (oh well not everything but most of the stuff. teehee)

jiayou my lady!
you have to prove to others what are you made of.
(mostly meat and fats actually. LOL!)

me,
i know am capable of doing more than i can.
but, just that laziness in me will slow my pace down!

ARGH!
lazy bug go away!
jiayou!

since i am lunch-ing now,
i will take my time off to blog about this, while stuffing myself with a big packet of rice..
LOL!

yup, exactly 2 weeks before the big "O".
mugging and mugging non-stop from yesterday.
feel like a nerd.

talking about yesterday,
that's when i am face with another decision to make.
staying here to complete my education or just fly off to the States and finish myself off with a degree?
SHIT!

for me,
i would really like to go.
but can i just leave everything here?
no.
for i know,
i am those who takes family very seriously.
and, i have to leave my family to someplace i don't know.
not even a thing about them.
ya, you may say that its just the States with alot of ang mos.
but damn you NO!
after i went there the last time.
i know i don't really like that place.
but i don't hate it as well.
its just...
don't feel home...

at this blooming age of mine,
it is good to be adventurous and go out there to explore.
but, i am those who can't leave everything down and go.
*poof*
just like tat.

daddy says he will support any of my decisions..

but,
another thing is what about baby?
i don't know.

i was thinking.
after i have gotten my diploma.
then i would fly over to the States to finish off my uni.
it would be a better decision right?
i would be more mature in handling every matter and i can take good care of myself too.

But, i don't know...
SHIT THE DECISIONS I HAVE TO MAKE EVERY SINGLE TIME!
ARGH!!

i have not finish my lunch yet.
LOL!
i will kill myself if i dirtied my chemistry textbook.
cause i place the packet of rice on top of it.
LOL!

today...
our 14th month together..
gosh, we have gone through so much together to come so far...

14months of being together,
i can't say that it is a long period for couples.
but it ain't a short time either.
compared to the instant relationship people in the 21st century are having.
getting hook together for just a few months before taking their own path on the opposite side.. some even just maintain their relationship for weeks or even days.

WTH! what kind of world is this?
love is a thing that one can be played for?
NO! i CAN TELL YOU HELL NO!
because, once you get hurt you will be afraid to step into another relationship again..
that phobia.
it is really scary.

when one's heart got played and shattered into pieces by a unworthy one.
it really hurts alot.
but, when you are cherished by someone who is willing to piece your shattered heart together. that feeling is and will be very bliss.
regardless of piecing together a heart cause of a unsuccessful past relationship or just because you got heart broken by an argument,
those piecing up moments are really really blissful and blessed...

i went through those really heart breaking moments..
i was really down...
but baby was there to pick me up with both hands and made my felt love again..
weird enough for how we met and how we got together...
but its all fate.

i believe in fate.
but i believe that you can hold onto your fate and change your life as well..
its something very, erm how do i phrase it, very abstract i think.
this would be how i describe it..

believing in what I believe...
this is one phrase i believe in alot.
because, i know that no one can make a difference except yourself.
i know that you are the one making the choices of life and not ther other people...

meeting baby in my life is a part of growing up..
growing to be more sensible and more responsible..
because in every relationship, it is hard to maintain..
but if you do put effort into it.
you'll get a return back for sure...

i love you dumb..
i miss you...

Last official school day in Holy Innocents' High...

i feel weird,
really and literally.
every single thing i do today,
i just feel weird...

and i am starting to miss the normal school day routines, the laughter, the jokes, the canteen food and many more...

not to forget the class.
my beloved 4unity 09!

there's alot to say,
but nothing seems to come to my mind at this point of time..
i know i would miss the school and the people...
i have led a wonderful life that many doesn't just because of the opportunities i had gotten from this school...

weird day.
i don't want it to be the last day of school.
though i wan my study break!

WEIRD!

anne bf gg camp soon...

she even counted down...7 days exactly...

will she miss him

or will she not?

its a rhetorical qn wif no answer provided, for those who noe will noe the ans.


s for those who don? well assume the answer urself...n_n